some time now I follow my sister's blog
, since I learned of its existence . And a few days ago wrote a post titled Back to Start
.
I must confess that reading it and especially read the lyrics of that song made me shed a tear by the end of this post also copied. And it is the truth that if you did or tried to carry a list of all your mistakes, the hurts and heartache would end with a huge list. And if you re-start will not reach the whole world time to repair the trust and need all the strength to ask forgiveness than it should. And as things have passed, it is sometimes easier to think that water and poured, and that can not be recovered and is an easier way to leave everything there is a tempting way.
In fact I think there are situations where you really not even worth trying again, some people do not realize the things they do, or short, and there are bad people just because they want to be so. A few days
ago I received a message that I did not answer, a person I trust I did not ask me time to talk. A couple of days later I received a call from the same person who did not want to answer. Hopefully the implicit message not to know or tell that person to be understood although a very faint hope because the message has been implicitly and explicitly given countless times already.
What a difference with another message I received yesterday from someone who deserves my apologies, I did not know the answer. And to re-start or repair or change some things would be impossible at this time. And it is hard to start again, sometimes you just not ready. And so you end up losing things in life, because maybe when you have learned or already have the opportunity to change things and the other person left.
I doubt however that opportunities still exist, and that life will go, and I hope that this first person take the lessons learned and live happily. And I hope the second one did not end up forgetting and closing the door of a friend.
There are many people who probably will not ever be able to ask forgiveness, people with whom I have no contact but that at some time suffered from my doubts, immaturity or outbursts of temper. I deserved what I have. In all there will be a new beginning, but I am sure that past experiences have been learned and they have given me the opportunity to be who I am and be who I am now. I have a thousand faults, and keep fighting against many, and probably others I have not yet conscious, but I'm thankful to be around good friends and great family, and have the opportunity to continue hearing more people who give me their trust and friendship. And I'm grateful for life to keep trying.
If I made a list of my mistakes
of minors to the worst
to expose all the wounds,
failures, heartbreaks and lies
offer the scent of amber
offer the cedar and my tears
with patience of the wait
a lifetime to heal
confidence if I were to start
not have time to repair
if I did a trip to
myself and survived the regrets
ask strength to say how sorry I am
if returned from a trip to
myself if I were to start
not have time to repair
spilled water is a thirst to quench
'm not what else I can save?
many things I can treasure?
sweet temptation to leave everything
how i want to occupy?
(until the memories no longer fit in this place)
what else I can take?
(last move should be the lightest)
sweet tencación
to leave everything sweet temptation
give it all began again
if
not have time to repair
(uu uu uu uu)
spilled water is
( uu uu uu uu)
thirst that I feel will heal me
(uu uu uu uu)
spilled water is
(uu uu uu uu)
thirst that I feel will heal me
is to know a little more, 
. . . . . 
